went punggol today, basketball with maggie and terence..
played taiti too..
played for hours, then we bought food and eat..
done for many things..
played bb again, lol'
something happened..
i was feeling sad for maggie..
hais, why so many thing happen nowadays,
i also very pekcek..
think this think that...
worry this , worry that..
i wished i am happy everyday, without fan nao, have him back,
and i want maggie to b happy everyday too..
i jus want to have happiness back.thats all.
everyday past so fast, he lefted me 118 days,i just so fast.
wtf luhs,but never minds , i still have to leave on still

today was quite awesome..
reach uncle john's house..
ate,talked with bridgette bout many things, life?
kay, toook food and ate...
play taiti, then lost, gaaaahs,
oswin came with his family.(damn noisy) accept oswin.
played taiti , oswin's turn to win, wth
then went to t1, arcade played..
then lan, played left for dead 2,
stupid sister dunnoe how play , hide one corner, wth..
then went back to uncle john's house, keep cahtting with oswin about somethings..
stupid marcus keep tickle me,
played teresa's guitar, hehaho,
sister playing playstation3, wth
watchtv, ate dinner,
played taiti with maarcus, korkor john, lioner korkor..hahas
korkor john won times, and lionel korkor lost times hahahas
11plus go homed,kinda fun but abit bored uh,,
guess we gonna meet eachother once again at chinese new year..
ang paohs (:
im addicted to left for dead manxs..so funn.(;


guess everyone's correct, even bridgette says, its time to let go..
even if he wants to patch, say no..
cos feeling already faded.
but i just cant forget him, i tried manymany times..
i hope i cant wash off everything in my mind and refresh again,
i want to study well , and live well, live happily,live with no problems,

hmpph, today's outing was funnnnn..
mmet kimberly at sengkang inter, and we went kfc..
talked with her, hehe
yiren came after with teckseng..
walked to sengkang cc,
started playing..
kimberly's 3 pointer was good luhs..
played with her..
then jeffrey and junjie came after..
so we played 3 on 3,
effin funnnnn, 1st time snatch till ball from junjie, and won the ball from jeffrey, hahahas
played till 6, then we went to compass kopitiam ,cos teckseng wanted to eat..
then they went pool, while me, jeffrey and kimberly went homed..^^
tmr gonna go uncle john's house for gathering(: CHRISTMAS (:
hmpph, kimberly is correct,i should not cry and love this kind of guy, i should letgo..
day past..i still dunnoe what to do and carry on..

woke up today at 11plus, was kinda late.
hmpph , it was 24 december today, its christmas eve today..
so tmr, i gonna freak out with my cousins,going uncle john hosue , then t1 with marcus and teresa i think ..
actually was going out with jeffrey and aldonis today, but aldonis had to work ,
so, yeah, basketball with jeffrey, kimberly , sheng jia and maybe yiren?
i was totally freaking hot last night, as in my mood.
freak out with family, and ahmad,
eh! i didnt tell weng wei to tell you all those things, bout us, the patch.
thanks if you tel weng wei to cheer me up, but you dunt need to tell weng wei to dun care me,
if u aint happy with me, you can just tell me.
things around are spreading, i know what the fuck you are doing,
fuck-ed up.


going to buy bagpack later , i dunnoe??
buying the same bag as maggie^^
i wanaa buy NIKE DUNKS now! , onto headset,blazer, black spec, new converse school shoe,
!!

didnt sleep well those nights ,
due to crap calls from friends,
went out yesterday with jeffrey,
went to tamp 1 , then ehub,
bought braziliano praia sandals,
then arcade, its been days that i didnt go arcade since nov,
then we went to wait for yiren and shengjia, they were at wildwild wet,
then off to kfc to eat, zzz, shengjia so disiaosiao,
smsed with kimberly^^.
she's living happily, she's strong,
hmpph, then we went to white sands , cos i wanted to buy textbooks,but no stock..
then we decide to go hougang plaza to play pool,
didnt know yiren and shengjia was good at pool, hahas
reached homed at 11,
dad lie to me, saying com aint use,fish!

i wan a ONTO HEADPHONE FOR CHRISTMAS,^^
hints>.< was loving the headphone long ago..




every night, i didnt know why i sudden miss u alot, its really alotalotalot,
i didnt know why, i always think of the past..
i love you, still.
i wont forget you, and will never,
although it already happens,
days past bys, school gonna restart soon..
gonna slack with maggie, peeps^^

hey passedby, that isnt ur probs with me taking picture.
its a handphone, damn stupid.
sup suey,


went tua yesterday, justin was late ..
talked with ahchong, ahhao was funny..
went coffee shop with justin, then went back..
hmphh, uncle gave us money to buy dinner ..
chatted with uncle and justin,
hmphh, gotta learn huat shou, gou kun, and gou gui..
chosed gou kun that's in red..
9pm, went homed.
today gonna play basketball with jeffrey.




i miss him,
is that my fate,
i hate all these,
i dun wan to pretend happy forever,
this is not the life i want.
i cant cry , i aint do anything.
i was miserable.













changing everything nows.
btut not my attitude.

ms lim called me up this morning ..a morning call ^^
went to school, for the cca banner ,
reached and few ppl was there .. :x
do the banner .,
ms lim went for lunch with ms tng and bought us kfc^^
hahhas,
bluhs, lazy type.
yanny cute luhs..
went to get back my precious basketball,
thanks ms tng^^
walked with yanny , siying and jiayi ,
yanny and i was freaking it out with the basketball.


byes.lazy type..

today's match was zzz.
refree was like no standard, and wtf!.
the boys did well,
girls, renee was super angry in the match,
that malay girl was like zzz.! , scolded renee vulgar , and they fought.
ms lim stop the match , cos was like play on for what?
went to ate at hougang mall with teammates.
went off to tua,
hahahahahs, uncle so funny, joker,
i was late though, justin and darren was there alrd,
lol.
hmpph, went home at 6pm..
danish and joanne was injure,
get well soonnn!!










passerby:i like to say what i my freedom,
dun need you to care. this is my blog, not urs.
thanks.

was to go kiki's court today, but her mummy change forward the time,
meet madalene at compass, ate and i went to meet weilin..
watch movie , and was like new moon once again..
ate aat kfc.then bus to punggol,
all the while smsing danish ^^
hmpph, nights, gotta work tmr .
busy.
mia.

I going to reopen my blog again,
spaamer carry on, if u think its fun,
i can jus call the police. lol.

saturday-
meet gabriel yeo and off to school to buy textbooks, his textbooks.
then meet justin to go his xintua.
hahahas. the uncle super disiaosiao.
then ahchong teach me to chuai jiu ..
hard uhs,
after that , finished, rested.
then look at justin practicing 5jiangjun thingy,
so tired uhs.
i was to find another 4 girls to bang gorh gui.
i bet its hard mans,
then ahchong. brought out his laptop out to watch videos.
8plus, then walk to coffee shop to meet ahyong..
he so lol, suddenly say we the citizens of hengki..lol
ohahahs, then justin and ahyong sent me go mrt station..
i rush to the toilet. hehehe
homed.



sunday.
went to renee's brother birthday party yesterday.
dickson was there.
ate ate ate.
4 plus we went to collect the cake
fork out 7 bucks.
reached voiddeck,
darrenkwok, ben and another guy was waiting for renee .
they were there for the party too.
hahahahas, they keep disiao darren that he retained.
same class as me too. -.-
finished .then me , renee sleep ...at sofa.
till 8 plus, to 9
then we went to pool,
weiming came later, and his friend yongtai.
funfun^^




today.
need to worked.
today was the fourteenth,
if there wasnt a breakups,
it will be the 7 month, for me and him.
i was fucking sad nows.
many thing occurs after he lefted me,
it was a bigblow,
i was doing things to torture myself,
no one noes.
it wasnt me after he lefted me,
i miss him, if he would come back,
i can sacrifice anything,.
but i bet he wont.
i love him as i do , for life.
i hate racist, between chinese and malay,
seriously.
i am not pointing fingers to anyone.
ahmadisyraf , i still cant forget you.
wordless.
nothing is ment to be forever.








hope things get better.
need money money money.
1.blazer
2.hairdyed [black] bts soon
3.rusty schol bag
4.hair extension
5.blackspecs
6.onton headset!!!!!
7.mylphosis handbag
8.himhimhimhimhim!
9.i want to have my happinesss back.
10.clothes

he was all i ever wanted
he was all i ever needed and morebut he walked out my dooryeah,
he went awayleft my heart in twoleft me standing here
singing all these bluesyou left without a single word
not even "sorry"it might of hurt worse to hear you say"i'm leaving; goodbye"
but your smile still makes my heart singanother sad song
i can't forget it, i won't regret it'cause i'm still in love with you
we had fun under the sunand when winter came
he'd be my angel
we were so in love
then he went awayleft my heart in two
left me standing heresinging all these blues,
yeah you left without a single word
not even "sorry"it might of hurt worse to hear sad song
i can't forget it, i won't regret it'cause i'm still in love with you
still in love with youi don't know what hurts worse, baby seeing you with him or being alone
on my own
i know he doesn't love you, babynot like i did oh, what's the point?
you're not listening anywayyou left without a single wordnot even "sorry"it might of hurt worse to hear you say"i'm leaving; goodbye"but your smile still makes my heart sing another sad song
i can't forget it, i won't regret it'cause i'm still in love with you













he' was funny uhs, joker...hahas.
while walking ,
saw miss lee , she waiting for lift , she stay near pigpig.
imm waiting for pigpig's reply, he didnt reply me from afternoon...
haisss.
went to loyang tua pek gong , after that with family,
then homed.
i am so confused, i stil cant let go him and pigpig,
i didnt know what to do,
pig says his not a suitable guy or a good guy enough for me ,
but his a guy that caares for me the most,,
hopes he reply me sooooon!.
nothing can cheer me up nows,
only pig's stupid jokes could..




hopes day could get better .

so yeahs, meet gabriel at his house void deck,
on the way smsed with leonard,
didnt know, leonard stay near x.gabriel.
slack at void deck til 5.45 then we went up to his house,
his mum cooked dinner,
while x.gab chiong maple..
ate, then a while later when off,
to fernvale.
saw justin and co.
a while later when koufu with justin, x.bao, junjie, and another 2 guy,
finished, went back to bbc.
chatted.






busy for these days,.
friday-meet leonard and x.gab
sat-meet renee and justin
sun-ice cream
monday-work?
thurs-friendly match.

neeed money like crazy...




i have buy these things.
1. x.gab present.
2.blazer from cotton on-$39.90
3. makeup
4.blackspec.
5.textbooks
6.bagpack
7.dress from mango or cotton on,$39.90
8.short jeans pans from cotton on-$39.90
9.loads to count.

training yesterday,
then homed.
meet jermaine then off to hougang mall to meet renee and dickson..
went to buy contact lens with renee.
then pool.
saw xiaobao, sherman and his co.
talked-
pool with jermaine,
saw yiqing too .
5plus went off with weizhong, egg, and his co.
walk to angmo woth weizhong, saw leonard and that bastard.
hahaha, i gan the bastard.
took the ice cream then we went to meet x.gab and bao zhen and daughter.
blahblahblahs
see icecream
x.gab went to find his grandma,
sell finish
then back to punggol to find egg , baozhen and weizhong.
bus to sengkang, while waiting leonard came,
then bused.
alighted bus, and we went to find gabriel.
smsed with leoanard (:
then cabbed homed with baozhen.
reached home,
smsed leonard and baozhen.
okays. byes, gtg .

darren's birthday chalet today .
called maomaocong, then meet her at her house downstairs,
with mabelene.
then we went to mac , ate .
freaking full luhs!
then we waited for ahkaii, to come then we cab down to downtown to wait for kiki and her stead .
walked to daren's chalet,
saw ahwan, x.john ,darren & co. ,they going wild wild wet ,
so , we went to darren's chalet 1st .
sit down chat chat,
blahs, today's moood was freaking loussy .
girls talk with sisters, about past, and ahkaii, kiki, and i cried ..
i cried after jj kor called me ,
i was blank and hot, i feel like punching the wall ,
his a heartless beast , and sad to say, i regretted to be with him and accept him,
at least leonard was better than him 100 times better .
piggy wasd the best .
stop crying when justin came,
and maomaocong advices us,
its true ,
talked with maommaocong, ahkaii, kiki and mabelene after we came back from mac,
then one guy came to me and say , xiao john want my num , i stunt . -.-
then maomaocong dun wan give , cos he ask maomaocong to help him too...
blahblahsblahs .
then at 10 we went homed,
took cab with maomaocong, ahkaii and justin,and homed ,
training tmr,
















its time to say let go,
i am sick and tired of loving him and cherish him,
it all when into the rubbish bin,
whats the point of loving him,
giving all my heart ,and he treat it as nothing,
given all my love and he gave me back hurts,cuts,
i shall not take back everything and say,
u said u will come back , so now how many days or months alrd ?
u are a turtle , sad to say.
only know how to step back when probs came out,
u said u hate me to find ppl daiji, so , who's the one look for me prob 1st .
not me, u think i want ?.
u dun understand me, my heart ,
i advice u to smoke lesser, u say i dun allow,
i advice u becos, i dun wan u to die early,
which gf wants stead to die early then her/him,
i noe u are not serious bout this r/s after 3rd month,
loves fade.
u love me 3 months, adn u are sickand tired,
then me? how u tell me,
i love u many months, did i say tired?
i sacrifice so many things for u ,
did u ?
i think ur brothers are more important than me ,
pangseh , me so many times ? jus to go homed , bath, go slack? .
i didnt even want quarrel with u ,
cos i dunwan to make each other sad.
now , i ask u jus a chance , u wont give,
i dunnoe why i give u so many chances, where did it go,
and your fucking promises when u jioing me,
hmphhh, it all was an lie, and i knew u hong zhaarborh at audi, u think
i wont know? huhhh! i knoe many things that u dunnoe .
please luhs.all my loves went into rubbish bin .
i can just cos of u , hurt two -three guys heart .
as zhenyang says, u are my love charm, but u are just an hongster to me .
i dun wish to see u again .
i gonna change myself ,
my specs, my hair,my attitude , my dressing ,.
thanks korkor for those help, but an bastard jus dun appreciate it .
thanks jasmine and ernest too,
thanks niu niu, ahkaii, and sisters too..

bye, i am gone for bad .

meet up vannaza to lent her phone today, touch screen yohs, thanks son!
then headed to anchorvale to meet up gabriel yeo kor.
then talk-ed , ate then , he went to city hall to find his friend, while i went homed
kor, cheer up bahs,
same too me, i wasnt that happy these few days,
i am stiil thinkinh of him though,
suan ming , suan till leonard pigpig and ahmad is comin back for me,.
i dunnow what to do, be happy or sad?
i will dissapoint one of them.
i am sooosoosooosoooo confused .
a headbang,
had a hair cut the day before,
looks better manxs.
so yeahs, going 3a3 nextyear,
need to jiayou, study!
tmr going out with uncle and grandma,
to watch shaoxuan's performance at kinderland,
as days pass by, many things happen,
i shall keep it to myself,
i dun wish to see brothers and sisters to look sad.







brothers and sisters one heart yohs.
leo and mad , shall always be loved .
christmas comin soon.
seeying all my lovely cousins.
waiting for .........

went out with uncle and grandma today,
basically was to bring shaoxuan out, to shopping ,
hehehe, shao xuan so disiao (:
back home nows.
cant sleep.
only maggie and terence know's .
talking on msn with x.gabriel kor naos.
okays!, so yeahs , tmr maybe meeting maggie?


cant wait to have my hair rebonded,extended, and cut .
things i have to buy :
1.blazer.
2.blue, green,yellow nail polish
3. two more hotpants
4.dresses
5.white shirts
6.cotton on sandal
7.bagpack
8.wallet
9.ipod touch
10.onto headphone
11.new floorball stick
12.kimsim for kor birthday present
13.BLACK SPECS.
14.boonhao's and chun birthday present.
15. to be continued...







ohyeahs!!!, x.gabriel kor intends to buy me onto headset for my birthday present (:
say yohs uhs!
i am so haappy (:

events attending:
fri:going to watch shaoxuan's performance,
sat , going out to meet ahkaii and 21 clique (:
sun:stay at home.










我不要求舍么我只要你回来，我好爱你。
我们是比不得以才分手的，我可以这么说。我好爱你，我不知到为舌么。也或哲我是太爱你了。